i. I love you, deArly. You are the only person I’d take a bullet for. To me, I think you are God’s greatest gift and you give me reason to live even when I went through that period in time when I didn’t want to wake up from my naps. But you would wake me up when it was time for dinner so I thank you for that.
ii. We fight so much. There are so many bruises and so many scars, especially internally. I hope you know that even when we brawl, there is love here. Somewhere in you, soMewhere in me. And we both have problems showing it but it’s there, I promise.
iii. You are so strong. Or are you weak? You found love in someone else to block out the love that fell apart. And you sometimes wish someone woulD push you off a cliff so you don’t have to do it yourself. Cowardly, I’d say. But I understand, I truly do. Because if I were you, I’d probably been at the bottom of the pit by now.
iv. It’s hard to forM a bond that is not there. Slowly, I do one forming. A bridge is building and I will walk over soon. Maybe one day, we will see eye to eye but right now, working on walking together is alright with me.
v. You are so beautiful. I wonder if you see that when you look in the mirror. I envy that you don’t need makeup. I wonder if you Truly believe your own words when you compliment yourself, because it would break my heart if you didn’t. Because all of it is true. You are amazing and you are kind. You are goodhearted and your light burns brighter than the sun’s.
vi. When you look in the mirror you see extra weight and a face that needs foundation, mascAra, and a lot of fixing up. I’ve seen you without all of that and I still find you as radiant as the Covergirl commercial, if not - more. Believe in yourself, you don’t need to touch up your pictures and the acceptance of others. You are enough.
vii. I still contemplate whether or not to tell you that you are sometimes the fuel and without you, I don’t know if this engine could run. When I am out of breath, you hand me a bottle of water to keep me going. I think I can barely run a mile but you sign me up for a marathon because that is how Much you believe in me. Thank you.
viii. Sometimes I fear that if you were to ever come back, I might run. No away, but to you. I just can’t think Straight. As much as I like to act tough, you intimidate me. I’m not scared of many people but I’m scared of you. And it’s not because I think you’d hurt me physically, I just think you’re so manipulative and I won’t be smart enough to see through your act.
ix. Thank you foR some of the best moments of my life. One day, I hope I can write out everything you’ve made me feel since day one but at this moment, I want to keep it to myself. I still think about you often. I hope you think about me sometimes.
x. One day you are going to find soMeone who loves you more than you love life itself. And this person will make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else. One day, you will see all the cities you fell in love with through photographs and meet people who resemble the characters in your favorite novels. One day, your dreams will come true.